Book Excerpt: “The Real Anthony Fauci” (NIAID: A Pharma Subsidiary)

Book Excerpt: “The Real Anthony Fauci” (NIAID: A Pharma Subsidiary)

How about another excerpt?

This is from the end of chapter 2, where the author has taken the time to begin to explain the connections between staff at the NIAID (National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases) and pharmaceutical companies and universities. It’s an entangled web that is funded by both the US government, but also pharmaceutical profits.

He closes the chapter with a rhetorical flourish that shows again in an easily observable way how far off the mission the agency that Dr. Fauci leads is.

It really caught my eye because so much of my daily life has been affected by the failure of this agency to stay on mission. This, as they say: “gets me right in the feels.”

“Most of us would like “America’s Doctor” to properly diagnose our illnesses using the best science, and then instruct us on how to get healthy. What if, instead of spending their entire budgets developing profitable pharmaceutical products, Dr. Fauci and the heads of other NIH (National Institute of Health) institutes deployed researchers to explore the links between glyphosate in food and the explosion of gluten allergies, the link between pesticide residues and the epidemic of neurological diseases and cancers, the casual connections between aluminum and Alzheimer’s disease, between mercury from coal plants and escalating autism rates, and the association of airborne particulates with the asthma epidemic? What if NIH financed research to explore the association between childhood vaccines and the explosion of juvenile diabetes, asthma, and rheumatoid arthritis, an the links between aluminium vaccine adjuvants and the epidemics of food allergies and allergic rhinitis? What if they studied the impacts of sugar and soft drinks on obesity and diabetes, and the association between endocrine disrupters, processed foods, factory farms, and GMO’s on the dramatic decline in public health? What would Americans look like if, for fifty years, we had a public health advocate running one of our top health agencies – instead of a Pharma shill? What would have happened if we’d spend that hundreds of billions of dollars on real science, instead of drug development? Dr. Fauci seems willing only to give us diagnoses and cures that benefit Big Pharma – instead of public health – and to cover his trail with artifice.”

Here’s the lines that jump out to me:

“Spending THEIR ENTIRE BUDGET developing drugs. “

“Glyphosate and gluten allergies”

“Mercury and autism“

“HUNDREDS OF BILLIONS OF DOLLARS on real science instead of drug development.”

There’s definitely some questions that need to be asked and resourced. This is just a paragraph, and it has no data in it. It’s a rhetorical flourish. You’d have to read the surrounding chapters to see all the data, the myriad of connections all these supposed “experts” have that serve on committees, boards, watchdog groups and so forth and how tied into the pharmaceutical companies they are. That’s bad enough, and then to see how ultimately all the funding comes from Fauci.

This book is a few months old. There were some emails released within the last couple of days that show how Fauci has a network of “experts” all throughout the world that under his direction give “expert” witness and testimony to the media, in boards and committees and even “watchdog” groups to quash information that is damaging to pharmaceutical companies.

Meanwhile, families like ours are left with the daily consequences of these failed opportunities.

It’s so gross. Judgment will come.


Posted by on January 17, 2022 in Book Excerpts


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Book Excerpt: “The Real Anthony Fauci” (HCQ – Before Dr. Fauci’s Smear Campaign

Book Excerpt: “The Real Anthony Fauci” (HCQ – Before Dr. Fauci’s Smear Campaign

Here’s the first section I dog-eared and marked in the book: It’s in the section of the book where the author is examining the current response to Covid from Fauci, and it’s all just observable data, easily found and resourced. He writes:

George Washington? Seriously? Wow! And, they got it from the bark of a tree? Incredible. I love this kind of information. Kennedy continues:

“Dr. Fauci’s challenge – to prove that HCQ is dangerous – was daunting because hydroxycholoquine is a 65-year-old formula that regulators around the globe long ago approved as both safe and effective against a variety of illnesses. HCQ is an analog of the quinine found in the bark of the cinchona tree that George Washington used to protect his troops from malaria. For decades, WHO has listed HCQ as an “essential medicine,” proven effective agains a long list of ailments (footnote). It is generally benign prescription medicine, far safer – according to the manufacturer’s package inserts – than many popular over-the-counter drugs.”

GEnerations have used HCQ billions of times throughout the world, practically without restriction. During my many childhood trips to Africa, I took HCQ daily as a preventative against malaria, a ritual that millions of other African visitors and residents embrace. Long use has thoroughly established HCQ’s safety and efficacy such that most African countries authorize HCQ as an over-the-counter medication. Africans call the drug “Sunday-Sunday” because millions of them take it religiously, once a week, as a malaria prophylaxis. It’s probably not a coincidence that these nations enjoyed some of the world’s lowest mortality rates from COVID. HCQ is the #1 most used medication in India, the second-most populous nation on the planet, with 1.3 billion people. Prior to the COVID pandemic, HCQ and its progenitor, chloroquine (CQ), were freely available over the counter in most of the world, including France, Canada, Iran, Mexico, Costa Rica, Panama, and many other countries.”

Sunday-Sunday… that’s hilarious. He makes a great point about how ubiquitous this drug is and was. I have a friend from Africa, and he commented that in his country “Praise the Lord, the Lord has been gracious to my country, because there hasn’t been many hospitalizations or deaths from Covid. There aren’t many hospitals or resources anyway. The Lord has protected us.” I have another friend from Africa, and she said that her family there says that “it’s a rich person disease.” He continues:

“In the United States, the FDA has approved HCQ without limitation for 65 years, meaning that physicians can prescribe it for any off-label use. CDC’s information sheet deems hydroxychloroquine safe for pregnant women, breastfeeding women, children, infants, elderly and immune-compromised patients and healthy persons of all ages (footnote). The CDC sets no limits on the lengthy and indefinite use of hydroxychloroquine for the prevention of malaria. Many people in Africa and India take it for a lifetime. Since its recommended protocol as a remedy for COVID requires only one week’s use, Dr. Fauci’s sudden revelation that the drug is dangerous was specious as best.”

Well… there you go. Some people take it FOR A LIFETIME for crying out loud… amazing. And, they have prescribed it for all kinds of people and it’s always been safe.

Don’t miss the footnote that takes you directly to a document on the CDC website that looks like something you would get at a tourist office instructing you on why and how to take HCQ when you go to certain places where you’re likely to get malaria.

So, you can see. I was 20 pages in, and already gob-smacked.

There’s more of course. Much more. But, that’s enough for today.

Let’s see how many excerpts I can publish! LOL.

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Posted by on January 15, 2022 in Book Excerpts


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Book Review: “The Real Anthony Fauci” by Robert F. Kennedy Jr.

Book Review: “The Real Anthony Fauci” by Robert F. Kennedy Jr.

Okay, this book is explosive. Let’s just say that from the start. There’s a whole side of the world I was introduced to in starting to read it. Here’s the story.

As you know, I have many friends in Canada. A good friend, even though he never attended Calvary, came across an interview that the author did with Tucker Carlson a few weeks ago, and sent me the link. That video isn’t available anymore, except if you create an account on and watch it there.

The interview was difficult to listen to. I don’t know what the deal is with his voice. But, it was well worth the time and effort to listen. He rattled off some facts and information and statements and events in history that told a completely different story about public health than I’ve ever heard.

I was surprised to find out that he was a Kennedy, the son of Robert Kennedy and the nephew of both Senator Ed Kennedy and JFK. That was intriguing. I also didn’t realize that he was the anti-vaxxer that everyone has been talking about and trying to counter in the public square. I couldn’t figure out who they were talking about or where this information against vaccines was coming from. It was this guy! Alright, this is now the other side of the story, not only because he was a member of the Democrats, and Camelot, but also an anti-vaxxer.

My friend and I discussed the interview and then he sent me a copy of the book that was the subject of the interview.

I think it’s important to say at this point that I don’t believe everything in books. I’m actually quite sceptical. I’ve been known to not only dog-ear pages and underline while reading, but also to write in the margins how and why I disagree with the author. And, I was sceptical in picking this up and flipping through it because it was just so outside of my experience, and in that category of hard to believe.

All that to say, I tore through it. And, I’ve dog-eared lots of pages, and I’ve been sharing excerpts with others. I’ll share those same excepts with you in coming posts. I don’t know if I’m allowed to because of copyrights and so forth, but, we’ll give it a go.

One guy said that you can read this book in five minutes. Everyday, just pick it up, open to a random page, read a paragraph or two, and you’ll have plenty to stew on the rest of the day, and then do the same thing again the next day.

The way the book is structured, is he starts out by reiterating what we already know about Covid and Fauci from the beginning of 2020, and his argument is that Fauci has obviously mismanaged the response to the pandemic. It’s like he knows we have short memories, or busy lives, and don’t keep track of what we’ve been told, and what other countries and cultures have done.

And, then he starts to go back and tell Fauci’s story, how he ended up in the position he’s in, and what’s happened under his leadership over the last 40 years. Then, the story shifts over to Fauci’s relationship with Bill Gates, and then he gives Bill’s backstory, along with the context of the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation and their connection to the Rockefeller Foundation, and their connection to vaccines stretching back to the early 1900’s.

The book closes by pulling all these backstories, and contexts together showing the scope of the web of connections all across the globe and then through news articles details what they have been doing over the last 20 years. The footnotes are overwhelming.

Eye-opening isn’t a strong enough word. Blistering wouldn’t cut it. Stunned is still too tame. Astounded is too high-brow to describe how I felt. I’m still searching for the right word. It did change me.

I will say this. The Bible is right. There is evil in this world. There are godless people. People who have no fear of God, or of divine judgment. But, judgment is coming nevertheless. And, if justice doesn’t catch up to some of these people in this life, it will greet them in the life to come. Reality is undefeated.

I’ll share some excerpts in coming posts. But, only to tease you. As a citizen of an English-speaking nation, encountering the other side of the mainstream narrative is imperative. I can’t believe this thing got printed. And, I can’t believe the author is still alive.


Posted by on January 12, 2022 in Book Review


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Book Review: “The Language of Deep Forgiveness” by Dr. Allen Gee

Book Review: “The Language of Deep Forgiveness” by Dr. Allen Gee

Last fall, Pastor Brett Robinson graciously allowed me to use his office to host the online gathering on AltarLive for Calvary back in Ottawa through December 2nd. While I was doing that, I would peer through the stacks of books on his desk. This book was in the pile. He receives a package of books occasionally from a service called “Pastors Box.”

I’m fascinated by the topic of forgiveness. It was the lynchpin in my life. Forgiving my dad in my late teens is how I had a life-changing encounter with God, and has served as a cornerstone for my life so far.

As, I experienced more life, I saw the same principles repeated in John Eldredge’s book “Wild at Heart,” Bill Gothard’s “Institute in Basic Life Principles,” “The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous,” almost everything I’ve encountered in counselling and inner healing and marriage resources, and then most recently in processing grief from “The Grief Recovery Handbook.” Forgiveness is a key component of spiritual and emotional and even physical health. It’s also been described as an art, and something that as we get older, we can expect to get better at as the years go by. You either get “bitter or get better.” What’s guaranteed is that we will all have ample opportunities to forgive.

When it comes to forgiveness, what has really helped me is the Apostle Paul’s words in his letter to the church in Collossae. He writes: “Just as the Lord has forgiven you, so you are also to forgive.” For me, that tells me that Jesus knows exactly how I feel about this situation. And, that encourages me. It also tells me that Jesus is my example on how to deal with the situation. This isn’t one of those situations like creation, where I can’t follow his example. He creates something out of nothing. Humans can’t do that. But, with forgiveness, this is something that humans, especially Christians, people who have put their faith in Christ, received the forgiveness of their sins and the gift of the Holy Spirit, this is something that we can do.

And, that’s really good news. Because the alternative, not forgiving, becoming bitter, or burying the offense down deep inside of us is poisonous. That there’s a way out is really, really good news, and we can simply follow the leader.

So, the topic always piques my interest. And, this title is “The Language of Deep Forgiveness.” It had two new words in it that I hadn’t seen before connected to forgiveness. That was “language” and “deep.”

What threw me off was that the book almost looked self-published and the author had a connection to Fuller Seminary. But, it was small and the words were big and the topic is interesting to me, and so I dove in.

I think he’s got some great insights and I think what he’s bringing to the topic can be very helpful for some people. Dr. Gee shows how that forgiveness is an act whereby we accept what’s impossible to accept. And, he does dig down deep into how we process what’s happened to us.

He says that forgiveness rests on two pillars. The law of retribution and the law of restitution. What’s been done to us has to be both repaid and punished. These are laws. It must be. And, so we have to address them in order to be released from the burden of the offense.

He then goes on to give some examples of how you would phrase things to express both what happened, what should happen as a response and what you are deciding to do about it. It’s language to help your heart and mind (and even your body) process the trauma.

And, it’s important to do it in both areas, both punishment that’s due and repayment.

I could see how this could really, really benefit some people. And, so, I recommend this little book.

You can probably find it on the internet at a huge website that starts with an “A” that doesn’t need one more cent from anyone.

But, I would encourage you to start by visiting Dr. Gee’s site – it looks like you’ll end up on the big “A” anyway, but still a good place to start.


Posted by on January 10, 2022 in Book Review


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Family Update

Family Update

Instead of answering all the emails and phone calls… this might be a good way to share how we are doing.

I underestimated a couple of things with this transition. I knew it would be tough, but there were some parts that I didn’t anticipate.

First, I knew emotionally it would be a challenge. What I didn’t completely calculate was how it would affect everyone else in the family. That’s not to say that I would not have made the decision to relocate, no, just didn’t realize really how big of a change it is for everyone else.

Thankfully, early on, someone encouraged me to seek out “family debriefing” which is what missions agencies do for missionaries and their families when they return to the US from another culture. You would think that the Canadian culture is so similar to the one in the US and so it shouldn’t be a big deal. That’s true. But, the difference is the transition. When we went to Canada, we were excited, and it was an adventure, and we had lots of hope and expectation and wonder. This transition is different. We didn’t want this one, it’s not all that exciting, there doesn’t seem to be much adventure, and we all in different ways mourn the loss of what we had.

We are scheduled for “family debriefing” in a couple of weeks. My prayer (and I hope yours too!) is that each member of our family would have an opportunity to process all that’s happened to us, so that we can be ready and open (and have an attitude of adventure) for what’s next.

The other thing that I didn’t calculate was how much paperwork is involved. Our society is intense on the maintenance of life just in paperwork. And, because of the pandemic, it’s slow. There’s government documents, identification documents, licenses, tags, insurance, banking, tax returns, phone numbers, addresses, two factor authorizations. On top of all of that, we trip over things like app stores and blocked IP addresses to get things done.

What complicates that further is that it’s still not clear what’s next for us. We don’t know where to settle down yet, and I don’t know yet what’s next for work.

I finished officially at Calvary Ottawa on December 15th. I’m grateful for what a blessing that whole process was for me and my family. I hope it was a blessing for the church as well. Pastor John Cowan and his wife Laura are a gift from heaven distributed all around.

After that, we threw ourselves into anniversary, birthdays (2 on the same day!), and very different ways of celebrating Christmas and New Years. There’s no snow. It wasn’t even cold. We all missed “Christmas in the Park.”

In that period of time, we did get around and started visiting potential schools for Olivia. She’s done well at home with the A.C.E curriculum, but we could see how she would really thrive to be in a school that offers that curriculum in a dedicated “learning center.” Just before the holiday break, we visited a small school in St. Petersburg that looks like it will be a good fit.

We enrolled her and one of the big reasons I’m able to write this post is because she’s on her third day there, and it appears to be going swimmingly. She LOVES wearing a uniform and has already made a couple of acquaintances by bringing her bubble mixture and wand for the times of recesses.

My heart is full of gratitude for people that pursue that calling of investing in children, and do it well, because they love the Lord.

While we wait a few weeks to ensure that it’s a good fit, I’ve been connecting with a couple of local pastors and volunteering. I’m happy to report that I was able to teach the Bible on Wednesday morning to a group of young people including my eldest daughter at Zeal School of Ministry. That was a real delight. I haven’t taught since October 17th in Ottawa. Well, I did share for a couple of minutes at the U-Turn Ranch in California… but not a full Bible Study.

Oh yes, and I’ve been reading some interesting books. I’ll share some reviews in upcoming posts.

We’ve also been visiting churches in the area. We wanted to see what was going on down here in the Calvary Chapels and we’ve even visited some churches that aren’t Calvary Chapels… just to see what’s going on, what the Lord is doing. I doubt I will write publicly about that, maybe I’ll make some general observations about the culture at some point.

Oh… and I stopped drinking coffee a few months ago. I don’t want to change my blog name though! LOL. I still love it. The problem was I loved it too much, and the caffeine was wreaking havoc in my body.

So, that’s the update. And, if we went for coffee today and had some time we would likely hit all of those topics at some point.


Posted by on January 6, 2022 in Uncategorized


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International Calvary Chapel Pastors & Leaders Conference – Recap

International Calvary Chapel Pastors & Leaders Conference – Recap

I attended this at the beginning of the month. The story is worth telling.

So, I’m in Florida. Gen and I had the opportunity to attend a Pastor’s Huddle for Calvary Chapel down here. While at the huddle, my new friend Chris invited me to the conference and offered to help me get there. He was convinced that I needed to go. Gen and I prayed about it and decided to go for it. That was on a Thursday. On Monday, Zac and I went. He happened to be with me that week, and I invited him, and he had a great week. That’s his story to tell though.

We missed the first session. It was in the evening and the traffic from LAX to Diamond Bar just made it a no-go. That was disappointing, because when we joined everyone on Tuesday morning, we heard over and over again how good that first session was. Pastor Joe Focht from Calvary Philly was talking about the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I went back and watched it with the family when I returned. It was a good and needed message, and well delivered. I’d highly suggest watching it. Joe starts at around 2:38:55

Joe Focht

The best session of the conference for us was Don McClure on the final day. Zac said it best. He said, this is a wise old man that is giving us some perspective and encouragement for the days we are in. It was deeply enriching. I found his analysis of the condition of western society in particular to be engaging. His text was Romans 16:22, how “none of these things move me.” He’s a wonderful Bible Teacher with lots of great insights, quips and humour.

Dear Reader, please take the 45 minutes and watch it. It resonated with me. It’s one of the reasons why I found so much camaraderie and encouragement and fellowship at this conference. I’d love to attend again next year. These people feel like my people.

Don starts at 2:21:00

Don McClure

If you enjoyed those… the next session you should watch was a joint session on Wednesday afternoon with Gary Hamrick and Mike McClure. It starts at 6:21:00

Gary Hamrick/Mike McClure

The other thing that stood out to me from the conference was the ministry tent. There, I was delighted to come across the Herzog Foundation and their desire to come alongside churches and help them launch Christian Schools. I pray those guys are busy and run out of money, because so many churches get going with schools for the families in their churches.

Additionally, it was meeting Jeret and seeing his new software platforms for helping churches do ministry. I really liked what I saw in Ministry Space as a rethink of what we attempt to do with Planning Center. I heard some testimonials of it in use over Covid and I’m sold.

Lastly, I got to spend some time with Joey who was at the table. That looks cool as well. Don’t be surprised if you see a switch to that sometime soon. I really liked it. It made me rethink some of what I’m doing on the internet, and revisit what I would be willing to do in the future. I really liked it.

Like I said earlier. I found camaraderie at the conference, lots of fellowship and encouragement. I’m glad to be part of this movement. I’m already looking forward to next year.

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Posted by on November 24, 2021 in Uncategorized


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Letter for Religious Exemption for Vaccine Mandate

Well, writing this letter wasn’t in my preparation for being a pastor. This is my first one. I’m posting it to help encourage the discussion around these things. I know that some disagree with doing these at all, seeing that the Charter rights of a Canadian have more standing. But, we aren’t necessarily in the environment that logical thinking prevails. So, here’s a letter that I wrote recently, that was attached to the paperwork of a person that’s attended Calvary for many years. They submitted it to their employer, and we haven’t heard anything back yet. I’ve removed some of the references to attempt to preserve the identity of the person.

October 1, 2021

To Whom it May Concern,

“John Doe” is a regularly participating person in good standing with our church. He has stated very clearly, and unequivocally his convictions pertaining to the vaccines available in Canada for Covid-19. I can also verify that we have had several discussions about the vaccines, health, his responsibilities to God, his family and society. In addition, it’s important to note that he has demonstrated consistently the kind of qualities that we expect from a mature member of society, namely high moral character in his personal and professional life. No one is perfect, but he has the reputation of someone that deeply desires to know the truth and live in a right and proper manner before God, his family and his community.

His convictions are in line with an orthodox and centuries-tested understanding of the New Testament. The Apostle Paul reminded us that Jesus offered his body to us, and it’s reasonable to offer our bodies to him. (Romans 12:1,2) Because of that truth, Paul also wrote in his first letter to the Christians in Corinth that our bodies are a temple of the Holy Spirit and it is important that we treat our bodies with dignity and care, recognizing that the invisible God is made visible through us (1 Corinthians 3:16,17). Jesus has dominion over our bodies.

Beyond this, God-fearing people everywhere recognize that God is righteous in his judgment of those that benefit from the shedding of innocent blood. No one will escape that judgment. If a person did, the universe would break. To participate in any way with the proceeds of human fetal tissue from abortion is abhorrent.

Lastly, as Christians, we take very seriously the admonitions by both our Lord Jesus Christ and Paul when it comes to caring for our families and society (1 Timothy 5:8, Matthew 19:16-22).

In my estimation, it takes great moral courage for a man to be willing to risk career, camaraderie among colleagues, and the disdain of society because of conscience. I’m grateful that our forefathers recognized in the Charter of Rights and Freedoms how Canada should make reasonable accommodations for conscience. Our society has enshrined into the fabric of our laws and culture that it is sinful to go against conscience (Romans 14:23). Our forefathers also gladly engaged in the values of the Nuremberg Code, after witnessing the horrors of medical procedures without conscientious objections. They further enshrined these values in the Ontario Human Rights Code. These rights and freedoms have been tested several times in Canada over the years in trials, tribunals and the Supreme Court (2004’s Syndicat Northcrest v. Amselem and 2006’s Multani v. Commission scolaire Marguerite-Bourgeoys), and to this date have been upheld. Our forefathers made allowance for dissenters to be accommodated in society. May God, and you and I, keep our land, glorious and free, and bequeath these same values to our children and grandchildren.

Sincerely yours,

Pastor Andy Falleur


Posted by on October 12, 2021 in Uncategorized


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Big Changes… Letter to the church after the Church-Wide Meeting recently…

Here’s what I sent through our email list after our church-wide meeting at Calvary Ottawa on Monday, September 27th, 2021. I have edited a couple of sensitive details out because this is posted to the public.

Greetings Church Family!

Let me begin by saying thank you for the time away that you gave us. I know that it was short notice, and I know that many of you were troubled by that. Gen and I appreciate so much that we were able to take that time to pray, think and talk over all that’s going on.

As you all are well aware, our society has changed dramatically, and it has changed the way that we operate as a church. I’m afraid there are more changes on the horizon. We need to talk about that. We will need to make some changes in order to continue gathering as a church, continuing to grow as Christians, reaching out to others and maybe most importantly passing on the faith to our children. 

In beginning to think about that and pray about that, reckoning with the changes that have already happened in Canada, what is on the horizon, and the particular needs of my family and my responsibilities to them, I’ve come to the realization that I’m not the right guy to pastor this church. I’ve been the right guy and I want to be the right guy, all the elders want me to be the right guy, but the Lord has made it obvious to both Gen and I, that I’m not going to be able to continue. We are going to try to relocate to the States.

There’s two important truths that we need to be reminded of in moment’s like this.

First, Jesus is the head of the church, He’s the brains of the operation, and He will lead and He will guide not only because He promised to, but also because He purchased us not with silver or gold or perishable things, but with his own precious blood. He is the Good Shepherd, and whatever good you have seen in me as a pastor has come from Him. 

Second, the Christian life is a life of faith. And, it takes faith under the leadership of the Holy Spirit to step away, to release a role, in order to watch the Lord meet the need through someone else. We live by faith. 

As, Gen and I have begun to walk down this road, by faith, to my surprise and delight, the Lord has provided for us a team of seasoned Calvary Chapel Pastors that are going to come alongside of us while we make a transition to a different senior pastor. 

What I’d like to do is introduce a couple of them to you this evening, and then, we can share what we believe the future is going to look like, at least for the next several months. 

(We introduced Bill HoldridgeChris McCarrickTrip Kimball, and John and Laura Cowan)

The plan: I’ll finish our quarantine and be in-person at Calvary on October 10thand again on the 17th. We are going to be dedicating all the Petrenko children that morning, it will be glorious. Pastor Trip Kimball will be with us on the 24th and Poimen will take over from there.  

Side note: The last time Pastor Chris was in Ottawa was the weekend that Jon Ruby was filled with the Holy Spirit, and his whole family came to Calvary for the first time. 

Pastor John and the team from Poimen will become what’s called the “Transitional Senior Pastor” on that day. Trip will be around for a couple of weeks, and then Pastor John Cowan and his wife Laura are going to come shortly afterwards. They will be here for 4-6 months and help us identify who the Lord has called to be the pastor here at Calvary. 

What’s going to happen to me and the Falleurs? Well, we don’t know yet. We are going to try to move back to the States. There’s some hurdles there, but it looks like we can do that. The good news is that everyone seems to be hiring in Florida, the population has grown significantly in almost every city, and Jesus has been faithful to lead us and guide us all these years, I’m sure he will lead us to some people that we can be a blessing to. We are open to what He wants to do. 

What can you do to help? 

  1. Pray:
    1. That’s the best thing to do, especially if you have anxiety or worry, or your overcome with disappointment, or you may even be angry. Let me encourage you to take that to the Lord in prayer. This is something that He’s doing. We are trying to follow the leading of His Spirit.
    2. Pray for us, pray for the elders, for Steve and Sharon and Zac, and for who the Lord has called to be our pastor here.
  2. Serve: There’s going to be new opportunities to help out. Look for those.
    1. Currently, we need a handful of you to take up this opportunity to disciple the next generation, our children. There’s 48 children here that are under 8 years old. Let’s share the truth in love with them.
    2. Let’s keep the Upper Room open to the church community. We need this available and accessible in Ottawa like never before.
  3. Give:
    1. If you’ve been blessed by our ministry here in Ottawa and would like to help us with what the Lord has for us next, the best way to give is to donate to the church here. This will help us in tying up loose ends here, moving costs, and establishing a new home in the States.
    2. We are also looking for accommodations for Trip Kimball and then John and Laura Cowan for the time they will be with us. We will need an apartment, or house or room for them for several months. They also need a car to drive while they are here. If you have leads or ideas or friends with cottages or spare bedrooms or wings of their house, or mother-in-law suites, please let’s talk.

And, then we prayed and closed off our meeting by moving into the lobby of AltarLive and some conversations continued. 

As always, the elders and I are open to your feedback. In addition, take advantage of our new relationship with Pastor John Cowan, Trip, Chris and Bill Holdridge. 

May the Lord bless you.




Posted by on September 30, 2021 in Uncategorized


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Today, I would tell you about J.C. Breazeale…

Today,  I would tell you about J.C. Breazeale…

J.C. was my maternal grandfather. He died on Friday, June 11, 2021 at his home in Millbrook, Alabama. He was almost 90 years old. His wife, my maternal grandmother died a couple of months before. She was 88.

Let me describe to you what kind of person he was. His name was J.C. and that didn’t stand for anything. It wasn’t his initials. It was his name. He was from Louisiana. He had to stop school after the 8th grade and start working full-time. His father and his brother had debilitating problems with alcohol. I recall someone telling me that his dad was the town drunk. My grandfather never touched alcohol, he hated it all of his life.

He married my grandmother two weeks after meeting her at a bowling alley. Incredible. Those were different times. After they married, he purchased her the first article of clothing that wasn’t a hand-me-down. They both worked, but she earned more money than he did in the early days of their marriage.

A few years ago, he sent me a copy of his testimony, how and when he became a Christian, and his experience of it. Here’s what he wrote:

“I really don’t know why I am writing this, except that one day, my grandchildren might want to know why I take the stand I do on some issues. Dr. Walter Martin said, “A man who will not take a stand for something is likely to fall for almost anything.” The Apostle Paul writes, “Let every man be fully persuaded in his own mind” (Romans 14:5). I became fully persuaded on some issues many years ago….and, I still stand on them.

I suppose a good way to begin this would be to give a word of testimony of my salvation….how and when I came to know the Lord.

I was saved Tuesday night, June 25th, 1963, at the altar of Centennial Baptist Church, in Pine Bluff, Arkansas. I lacked 3 months being 33 years old.

I had been brought up in church, in my early years. Mr. paternal Grandfather was a “lay preacher” who was well known and respected in our area. I was too young to know about doctrine, but from what I can find out, he preached sound Baptist doctrine. After his death, my family drifted into a “Pentecostal” type church, due to influences from relatives on my mother’s side of the family. I attended their church, though I never became a part of it. I knew that I could never live good enough to keep my salvation, and I refused to make a mockery of salvation, as I had seen many do.

The night I came to know the Lord Jesus Christ as my Savior, I had been to a union meeting. We had a member whose name was Oliver Jordan, who had a habit of coming to the meeting under the influence of alcohol and wanting to argue about everything that came up for discussion. I detest beverage alcohol, and I had made up my mind (or I thought it was me that had made up mind) that the next time Oliver came to the meeting drinking, I was going home. That night Oliver came and he had been drinking, so I went home. That night happened to be the visitation night of Centennial Baptist Church.

I hadn’t been at home but a few minutes, when there was a knock on our door. When I opened the door, there was Bro. Jesse Whitley, the pastor of Centennial Baptist Church, and Bro. H.B. Hall, one of the Deacons. I invited them to come in. And though Bro. Whitley had visited before, there was something different about that night. Times before, I had been able to change the subject, off salvation, and talk about sports or other things. But that night, I could not seem to come up with anything. I really could not tell you one word Bro. Whitley spoke, until he said, “We can kneel right here by your couch and you can call upon the Lord to forgive you and save you,” I remember the first word that came from my lips: “No.” But that “no” was followed by, “I always said that when I got saved, it would be at a church altar.” With that, Bro. Whitley replied, “Then let’s go down to the church.” And that is what we did. Bro. Whitley, Bro.Hall, Ann, and myself went down to Centennial Baptist Church, and knelt at the altar.

When my knees touch the floor, I remember starting to cry. My heart was broken as I came to that moment in my life. Bro. Whitley prayed, and then said to me, “Bro. J.C., will you pray and ask the Lord to come into your heart and save you?” I couldn’t answer. All I could do was weep. Finally, I uttered 8 words which I will never forget. Through my tears I prayed, “Lord, save me. I’ve been wrong so long!”

I couldn’t tell you what happened at that moment, but there was a change in my very being. There seemed to be a great weight lifted from me. There was a peace that I had never known before. What I later come to know from 2 Corinthians 5:17 suddenly became a reality. Life took on a new meaning. After almost 14 years of marriage, Ann had a new husband, my children had a new Daddy….not perfect, but new.

I Had lived a life of being under conviction from the time I was about 17 until that Tuesday night. I would take my family to church and go get them after church. I knew it was good for my family to be in church, but “it wasn’t for me.” I would go to church occasionally, but when the invitation was given, I would suddenly need to go to the restroom or get a drink of water. Whatever excuse I could come up with was all I needed to get away from the Holy Spirit’s drawing. I had run from the Lord ever since I could remember. But that night, I lost the race!

Several other things changed that night. I had an extremely foul mouth (though I never cursed at home). I asked God to help me quit my profanity, and it stopped as though you had flipped a light switch. That night, He gave me a desire to read and study His word. I have tried to do this daily since that time. It was a few months later that I dedicated my life to be used of the Lord with whatever abilities He gave me. Though I have failed Him many times, He has always remained faithful. AMEN!!!”

(J.C. Breazeale testimony from an email he sent me.)

My grandfather loved to sing about what the Lord had done for him. He had a small P.A. system that he would load up from time to time and travel to small churches all around Arkansas. He would set it up and lead the singing and do special music for Sunday night services and hymn sings, and gospel quartets and bluegrass. Some of my fondest memories are being at some of those events and being around his friends.

He also edited and published a newsletter for many years from his church. He would collect the articles from various people, edit and copy and paste all by hand (way before computers) and then take them down to a printer to be copied. I remember watching him prepare the newsletter with his exacto knife and paper cutter and bits of glue. Once the printer was finished, he would stamp and send hundreds of these to people all over the South. I wish I had a copy to show you.

Grandpa (Paw-Paw when I was small), did read and study the Bible everyday. He loved to do word studies. Where he would systematically work through a book of the Bible by looking up the definition of each word in the original language. It was tedious work. He also made copious notes in his Bible with a .3mm mechanical pencil on very small hand drawn lines. It’s an understatement to say that he treasured the Scriptures. He was completely committed to the King James Version.

I remember him ending every day, by getting on his knees by the couch and praying for each one of his children and grandchildren. Every time we visited or called, he would remind us, sometimes individually how much he loved us, that he was praying for us, and to try and “help your mamma.”

As a child, I remember him telling me: “Andy, you can do whatever you put your mind to.” Man, did that go down deep. And, it gave me a lot of hope, when hope was scarce.

I got to spend the summer with my grandparents in my early teens. I left Florida and spent several weeks in Opello, Arkansas. I cut grass, weeded the garden, played basketball, went fishing, shot a .22, and helped him build an addition on to the back of his house. Grandma gave me Coke-a-Cola and a candy bar almost everyday. It was the best summer I had as a kid.

He bought me my first real Bible that summer. It was a KJV, from Oxford Press, with a Genuine Leather cover. It was very expensive. That was the Bible I read and studied when as a young adult. I still have it.

One more story, and maybe the one that really inspires and challenges me. It’s a good one to leave you with.

One Saturday during that summer with them, we went into town to get a haircut. While we were waiting for our turn, one of the men there began to use foul language. My grandpa piped right up and said: “I’ll thank you to not use that language in front of my grandson.” The man excused himself.

I’m very, very grateful for his example in life.

And, I know very well, how my life has been privileged because of that Tuesday night at Centennial Baptist Church.

Grandpa reading the Christmas Story to my nieces and nephews.

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